Journey to Death

My Journey To Death

Today, I take a moment to ponder all that journey to death has taught me.

On June 29,2015, that was the longest day for me as I went home to catch up with my mom who was in a comatose stage. She was 61 and had a  fight with chronic kidney failure and liver cirrhosis. We knew it was coming but have never thought that it was only for 4 months.

I arrived at around 11:50 pm, my mom lying on the bed, catching her breath so fast, so thin, so pale, with her pupil almost gone and just the white part of her eyes. I just closed my eyes and prayed aloud. I hugged her and whispered that I love her and it's okay for her to leave us. Telling things in a manner of a joke was all I did. I need to be brave in front of her because I know she does not want me to cry. No words, no reactions, nothing at all but a hard and catching breathing. On June 30 at around 1:02 am, her eyes suddenly opened, looked up for my father and slowly raised her hand towards my father, saliva coming out and eyes slowly closed.  Having witnessed as she drew her last breath was so painful. My mom is gone and there is nothing that we can do but to face her death.

Being on this 4 months journey with my mom's journey was so difficult. It's a mixture of emotions and even financial struggle. When she was diagnosed with her condition, I know it was difficult for her and struggled with it. During those times, there was nothing that I could do but only see how she suffered and how she was in pain. All I could do was to talk to her, encourage her and make her smile. And most importantly this journey is all about surrendering everything to God.

During this season, there are important lessons I learned in life.

1. Life is too short. Make the most out of it to honor, love and take care our parents no matter how busy we are.

2. God always chooses the best for us. While I want my mom to be alive but it is more painful to see her suffering.

3. Surrender and Being Strong are two big words but we should learn how to fully embrace the real meaning of it.

Thank you, Ma for helping me how to be strong and for teaching the most important lesson. I love you Ma.Just as you said before you die, that I should learn to accept things, be strong and continue to live life the way it is.

Celebrating 7th Year of Working from Home

Celebrating 7th Year of Working from Home

Wow, time flies so fast! On August 23, 2015,  it's going to be my 7th year of working from home through Upwork (Formerly Odesk) . I wonder how I survived all these years working on my own without any company benefits :).  With these 7 years, good memories  I have with Upwork are  worth sharing for !



odesk-2I was part of the first ever Odesk (now Upwork) Meet and Greet and was one of  those who presented  Odesk Experience. There were 70 contractors who volunteered  and was fortunate enough to be selected as one of the presentors.  Here is the highlight of my presentation:

” I would rather start my presentation with why I love Odesk very much ! It is because Odesk created a significant impact in my life. For 3 years, Odesk provided me benefits and has been an instrument of the following aspects:


Having a better income from which I was not able to make it working for 9 years in the corporate world as Fraud and Risk Analyst.


An opportunity to take care of my kids


The mindset of not just being an employee but an entrepreneur.

Builds Relationship

My client and I became friends. We have been working together for 2 years and 1 month now.

The Value of Sharing

It has given me an opportunity to be a channel of blessing for some people. The blessing did not end with me, it goes beyond to my relatives when I shared it with them. We are 1 big happy family in Odesk, my husband, my sister, cousins, my aunt and even my 57 years old mother had a chance to get a job.


It opened doors for my mother who knows nothing about computers but because of her interest she finally learned how to use a computer. I am truly blessed because I have a client who is very kind to give my mom a job.

The Value of Helping Other People

In my small little way, I was able to offer a “small” job for new Odesk members.

Skill Building

Odesk somehow helped me develop my writing skills. ? I track everything how Odesk contributed for me to have a better life at


It is a fact that working online will not give you stability but no worries at all because our security relies in GOD alone. The weapon that I live with to achieve success is through Living and walking LIFE together with GOD.

Faith in God


Thank you very much Odesk and may you continue to open doors of opportunity and make a big impact on someone’s life.


Just having some fun with fellow  Odesk Freelancers.



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Had the opportunity to take photo with Mollie Carter, Director of Customer Marketing

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Working with  Upwork has always been a blessing and it is worth sharing that Upwork created a big impact in my life. Thank you Upwork for this innovative way of working from home.